208th Day - 13th Year

Teach me to pray how I ought to pray! Let Thy Will be done this day in me, as it is done perfectly with the Angels. I ask that You give us what we have need of! I saw on the website how the main page of Carrium.com was added on the 4^th month Window. You do know all that we need. It was brought to my remembrance how You spoke on yesterday about You are speaking to the new converts, and not to those of us who have been wasting time and been around for all this time. But if we can catch a hold on the Word this time around, it will be for our good, too! Last night when I went to bed, my husband and I were watching a part of a movie about Moses and the Children of Israel. He was asking me some questions about it, and I was telling him that this is what the Lord was saying about how the people did leave Egypt, but because of sin, they wandered around and around in the wilderness until they all died off, and only their children, and Joshua and Caleb entered into the Promise Land. I said this is what the Lord was showing us today about how if we don't take what God is saying, He will let us die, and it will be those who come after us, that take it up and run with the Word!

Blessed is Your Mercy, O Lord.

Thank You, for this opportunity to still get Your Word!

On yesterday, an amazing thing had happened when I was awakened, that I was thinking about my past. I was thinking about how I was such a horrible and disgusting person, and how I was truly a whore before the Lord. I was a filthy person with no morals and I had very nasty ways. I looked at myself in the past and I think about how disgusting it is to think about I let men touch me and desire me and I thought this was funny! I also thought about how it was that I was not a virgin when I met the man that I was to marry. And this is what the Lord was talking about before, about when a man does find a wife, how many men have been with her before. It is rare for a man to find a virgin in these days! All of the things the Lord talked about was in my remembrance, and I looked at my old self, in true disgust!

A virtuous woman is truly a rare find!

These are things that we were telling our sons about finding a wife.

Also the other day, a man had come by the shop and he had asked for Michael, our youngest son, so he could help him with his computer. I said, ”Michael is cooking right now.” and the man was shocked!

He said, “Cooking?”

And I began to explain to him, how our sons need to know how to cook too, because what are the chances that they are going to get a wife who knows how to cook? What young female in these days knows anything about what it means to be a wife and a mother?

He smiled, and he said, “Yea, you're right!” He agreed, then, that the boys should also know how to cook. Amen!

My Lord, people who knew me from my past will have a hard time for seeing me for who I am now.

Last night I was given a dream that showed a Queen who lived high up in a city in the clouds! She was a white woman and I know that she had been a President, at one time, and then was made to be Queen! She wore a thick royal robe and I saw her as she was walking among her servants. There was a man who was staying in her palace and he was a drunk Russian man, also of high importance. I heard the palace guards talking about the Russian wanted a whore for him to have sex with. There were several scared young females standing in a row in front of him, to choose from. As the queen walked by, the Russian man saw her and said he wanted her! He thought she was one of the whores. She pushed him aside and said, “I am a Queen!” She dismissed him as if he were nothing to her and walked on.

Below her I saw that the Kingdom was in shambles! I saw huge dragons, that were used as mounts being kept in small cages below. The Queen wanted to release these dragons.

The Queen was still pretty, but she was in her 50s. She reminded me of Hilary Clinton. But the young whores that were in front of the Russian man were also pretty and were very young. They were in their early 20s. They were thin and dressed in rags, but the clothes were like short togas, barely covering their private areas and thighs. They looked scared and kind of hunched over, not standing at all as if they were strong and confident. The Queen was the one who walked with boldness and confidence.

All I kept thinking about was that I was seeing America high and lifted up! She said, “I am a Queen! And I am no widow and will see no sorrow!” She had all the people looking up to her and she never even saw that she was about to be replaced! There were younger females there, that could be chosen from. What would Satan want with an old hag, when fresh meat is available?

Rev. 18:7 “How much she hath glorified herself, and lived deliciously, so much torment and sorrow give her: for she saith in her heart, I sit a queen, and am no widow, and shall see no sorrow.”

Satan has done all of his experiments in this land to see how do things work, and now he is done with it! He is ready for Babylon 8, the One World Government! He has set his eyes on the next one, and America cannot be here when he is ready to put his plan into action.

Just like the Queen in the dream, she was not aware that there was an assassination plot against her! She was going to be killed! And this was also what the Lord was speaking about a few days ago about who is it that is seeking to kill us and we do not even know it? The wicked do plot on how to kill, everyday, and the only One who truly wants to stop them from killing us is the Lord!

Also in the dream, I saw that my husband had been around some other Mexican men and one man had hit my husband in the eye and given him a black eye! I saw my husband in the bathroom and I asked him what happened to him. He said the man slapped him! But he seemed like he did not want to tell me all of the details. I do not know why the man slapped him, but I saw that it was his right eye that was swollen.

There was also a man named John in the dream. This man is one of our customers and he is a white man. In the dream, he was telling me that he is dying of cancer. He was renting a place from the landlords of our house, but I know that he was not taking care of their property. I was walking with Jennie, the landlord and she was telling me that she wanted all of her things, that John had taken, removed from his house! Apparently he had taken these things without even asking her permission, and now she wanted them all back. In this part of the dream, I was actually there, and I know that I was also sick. I was having the same problems again of feeling dizzy and weak, and I was wondering how could I get all of the stuff Jennie wanted moved out of his place, if I did not have the strength to do so!

I have never been sick in a dream before! I have felt many things, but I have never sick before! After reading the website, Carrium.com, I was searching for some other things and have found writings about me being sick around the same time last year, with what seemed to be the same thing! I was talking about blood not circulating right and I was having problems with my feet swelling and losing feeling! But this time, when I was sick, I was also having dizziness, and all of my limbs would be numb at times! I was also having trouble focusing and thinking! Thank You, Lord for Xmeah and thank You for giving me to stand against a trial of being tempted to eat some meat again! Because I was feeling pretty good and had been for about a week, I was tempted to eat some meat on yesterday. I called and asked the Man of God could I eat some, and the Lord spoke to me, through his mouth and told me to resist this temptation! I will stand in this trial, and I did stand! I did not eat the food, and I thank God for the strength, because lately I have not had much appetite to eat, but yesterday, it was so strong, and the food smelled so good! Blessed are You, O Lord Who gives us the ability to have a thing right before us and we are told not to touch it, and we can do it! Amen! And not only not touch it physically, but what about a desire! That was one thing I was reading on the website in one of the older chapters. It was speaking about even if you do not do a certain evil, but you desire it in your heart, then you get the same evil rewards even as if you had done it! Amen! Thank You for helping me to build temperance! Amen!

My husband was sitting on a couch with some other men and he motioned to me that he would help me.

My Lord, what does this dream mean?

There are things on my mind and troubles of my heart. One thing is when the Lord spoke before and said that we are supposed to get ready, because the people from our past that we were once in sin with, could one day be our sisters and our brothers. My husband had people from his past, and so did I. But what if they come to the Lord, too?

People who knew me from my past remember me from how I used to be. And one time the Lord spoke about, “What if they were to see you now?” Do I look anything like the person I was before? NO! I am old now, and fat and I do not even look the way I used to. So, would a person, who was attracted to me from my past, be attracted to me now? No way!

I also thought about how could I minister the Word to the people who knew me from my past? Will they hear, or will they still see the old me?

In past Reports the Lord spoke about when a man gets a wife and she was a whore, he should take her from the city where she lived, because of the history there and the men of that city knew her. It would be a constant vexation to the husband about men being around his wife and they say things like, “I had her before!”

This is why I do not like Houston, because it reminds me of the days of my youth, when I played the whore! It disgusts me to think of all the stupid things I did in my youth, and wasted myself there. And now that I am in a new city, it is as if I have a fresh start, where no one knows about my past, unless I speak about it!

I do not want to cause my husband any torment and I do not want me to be tormented.

I have had dreams before about ex-boyfriends coming and the Lord was giving me the understanding that symbolically speaking, Satan is the ex boyfriend of every Christian, and he still thinks he can get us back. Just as an ex boyfriend will take the virginity of a woman and never marry her, making her to be of less worth when she does find a husband, so do the young males in these days! But the Lord took us anyway, even though we were filthy and disgusting and had sex with another man. He took us, washed us, and married us and made us to be a honorable wife! This is speaking to men and women, but I look at it from a woman's point of view. God took us from being a whore, where any man could have us, to being a wife. To one who is to be honored, loved and respected. Now, who would be a fool to give that loving and caring up for a person who just wants to get their pleasure off of you, and then pass you off to someone else? Satan, when he is finished with the whore, he gives her to Death and to Hell, and let them take their turn at her and have their fun with her!

And just like You spoke about on yesterday how we as children learned to play, I see how we not only used dolls to play house, as little girls, but also as teen age girls we used our bodies to play with, and let young males play with our bodies. The Lord said, “Yes, boys do play with dolls, too!” In a sense it was like we were playing house, but never with the intention of producing children and being married to the one we had sex with. It was all just fun and games! There is so much wasting and spoiling going on!

My Lord, I thank You for the dreams! I do ask that You would bless me with more understanding, and I also ask that the thing that You have started be for real and let it continue! I have seen in the past that I start things, because it is spoken about, but because love was not there, it did not continue! Deliver us, O Lord from this evil!

For Your Kingdom, Power and Glory is above all and it all belongs to You forever more! Amen!

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